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She could stand in the rain for hours,
watching fragments from heaven fall,
mirroring
her shattered heart.

'Why are you crying?' the moon one night asked her.

And she looked into his soften light
and she told him,
that she had never been beautiful.

'Why do you think that?' he asked,
and she shook her little blonde head and said
no one had ever seen her,
she was invisible.

'You are not invisible', the moon said. 'You are like the stars beside me, you shine for those who can't find there way home, and that is beautiful'.

She pointed at a falling star
and she said to him
'If I am a star... that is me'
and they watched the star disappear into the darkness.

The moon looked at her sad blue eyes and said quietly
'Then I will give you the strongest of all the stars'
and he took the brightest of them all
and placed it

deeply in her heart

*,

kiss my scream to silence
be there when I cry
see my pain in water
in the flowing from my eyes

repair my shattered pieces
catch me when I fall
love me when I'm fading
please save me from the dawn




I give my heart forever
for you to keep and hold
you're the guardian of angels
you're my fire in the cold

I'm stranded
in dreams from the past
losing myself in the dark

trying to breathe
but there's nothing left

my inside is screaming
and I wish it would be different
wish
myself away

the horizon is never-ending
the sun
forever gone

I'm floating on the ocean
and the water is drifting in
filling me up from inside
so cold

I can't breathe

people walk by
in another world
they can't see
my pain
me

and I'm trying to breathe
once more
but



there's nothing

when the sun has gone to sleep
and you can sense the moon glowing
behind the clouds
then
I open my eyes

when life has become silent
and the fog has fallen
over the frozen river
then
I open my door

my steps conduct mee
to non-existence

and I'm losing myself in the music
which pounds from the headphones I'm wearing
trying to forget

the pain

my life

along the road I'm walking
there's only darkness
the night
is eternal

my world go round in circels
and the air I breathe becomes thinner

heaven is under my feet

and I jump




becomes one with the stars

när solen sover
och månen skymtas bakom molnen
då
öppnar jag ögonen

när bilarna tystnat
och dimman sänkt sig över dagen
då
öppnar jag dörren
ut

mina steg leder mig
till ingenting

och jag förlorar mig själv i musiken
som dånar från hörlurarna
försöker glömma

smärtan

livet

längs vägen som jag går
finns det bara mörker
natten
är evig

min värld går runt i cirklar
och luften jag andas blir allt tunnare

himlen är under mina fötter
och jag hoppar





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